Serenity

Torrid times.. looking back at all that has been going on within me, feels like its all going to burst out, sometime in the near future... not knowing what am doing, not knowing why am doing what am doing, not knowing how to stop what am doing and not knowing whether i should stop what am doing.. i am constantly creating my own puzzles and trying to solve it.. constantly getting myself lost in the maze.. i find the way out, but that lasts for too short a time for me to savor it, and am lost, in the maze again, thinking... i have started hating most of what i do.. most of what i loved to do.. this is a change in me that i badly want to undo .. i badly want to go back.. i badly want to stop thinking of a trillion things at a time.. need serenity.. probably a 'Into the wild' or a 'Catcher in the Rye' is what will bring me back..